I can’t breathe.

My mind is engulfed and muddled with doubt and fear.

Behind your eyes indifference lurks and consumes.

Disillusioned, your once irrevocable devotion seems faded and distant.

Words spoken, promises made now seem lost.

 

My stomach knots and darkness creeps in.

Thoughts of losing you, threatening and overpowering my sanity.

Panic rises and catches in my throat.

Emotional ruin seemingly unavoidable, lingers thick and palatable in the air.

 

Eyes closed, heart pounding.

I stand still and I am grounded.

Prepared to lose you, to lose myself.

Prepared to dissipate into space, lost forever within myself

 

Physically and emotionally unable, unwilling to run.

I wait in fear, in hope, in love.

Unequivocally yours

Mind, body and soul

Forever